Another sleepless night to add to the book. Well technically it’s not a sleepless night it’s just a bit to late for my liking, then again when am I not up this late. So I’m laying in my bed, wishing my stupid internet would work. I’m currently using my sisters phone as a hotspot. It’s a good short term solution, but it drains everything out of your phone.
My sleep issues have not died down and won’t be anytime soon. My next sleep study is for November 1st, and that’s the soonest we could get. I can’t decide whether the lack of sleep is from my actual sleep problems, or my crap lungs.
Now taking into account, my lungs aren’t that bad all things considered. Ya there not your typical “I can walk up stairs fine” lungs, but they could be worse. Now for me, ya it’s not very good. I have a lung infection, probably going to be admitted soon, but I have to accept that and wait. At least I got to go to Paris before yet another lung infection decided to invade my body. Now my pfts weren’t awful last time, actually a little better than the previous ones, but pfts are weird like that. Not accurate all the time, depends on effort and technique. One of my numbers were 86, which is pretty good, but can be pretty annoyingly inaccurate if you ask me. When you can barley readjust your blanket without getting out of breath, the fact that there that high proves to call them inaccurate. Plus I’ve never been great at pfts and vocal cord disfunction doesn’t add any benefits.
My episodes of breathing problems leave me unable to talk for long or short periods of time, not being able to do much, and just wanting to sleep. They drain a lot out of you, and with the already sick state I’m in, causes even more fatigue. When I was admitted through the er the doctor told me that when an episode happens to just relax. So I do breathing exercises, try to sleep sometimes, and watch something. I usually don’t do much when I’m sick, but this lowers my ability to and my motivation is already lacking.
Don’t get me started with motivation. I usually end up writing blog posts when I can’t sleep. I’ve been trying to draw more, both for me and my blog. It helps me relax and especially listening to music can calm me down. I’m trying to concentrate on colored pencil right now and to get better at that. I can’t draw for long, around an hour at most, without getting exhausted, but it’s good to be able to have a project to work on fir the next day.
I try to do the most I can in a day, even though I regret it a lot. Our pool is finally set up so I’ve been swimming in it with my sister and parents. Today my dad put mya, my dog, in it. It’s an above ground pool, unlike my cousins which we usually go to, so we had to physically lift her in and out of the pool. She still loved it though. My dads going to build her some steps so she can get up without difficulty. When we first introduce mya to a pool she didn’t go in for a while. We would lift her up and show he where the steps were in my cousins pool, u til one day she just jumped in. Now whenever she goes in she never want to get out, which is really cute. She looks like an otter when she swims.
Anyways I’m going to attempt to sleep, that’s all for now,