Lung Infections are BS

Didn’t I just go through this like a month ago?

The answer is yes, and this is why lung infections are BS.

The repetitiveness is ridiculous. Like seriously it’s maybe been just more than a month since my last admission? I don’t know, all of them sort of blend together into one flaming ball of garbage that I just want to put down the disposal.

Oh ya and anxiety? Well that can just go jump off a microwave.

I just started a new pediatricians since I’m still idk young? Though I feel like I’m older than 15. Hospital stays, handfuls of medications, and cracking joints, oh my!

Ya you could say I’m sleep deprived.

Started taking an oral antibiotic, though they never help, I think they have to do that rather than just send me straight to the hospital.

I’m coughing a lot more. When I’m sick it’s usually dry cough with the occasional wet coughs, but now it’s 50/50. I mean it’s not as bad as others, but it’s still a pain.

I have around 3 weeks of school left, then, freedom! I was hoping to stay out of the hospital til summer, but at this rate where I can’t walk to the couch from my kitchen without being breathless for 10 minutes is a bit ridiculous.

Algebra sucks btw. Who thought adding letters would be a good idea. Just 4 years ago x meant to multiply, where as now it’s ‘oh find what x means or something.’

Anyways, in summary my health sucks, lung infections are BS, and anxiety can go jump off a microwave.

Well thanks for listening to my ted talk,



Hospital Day #7

So a lots been going on the last day or so. Yesterday I had thrown up around 6 times. Dry heaving, that fun stuff. I basil you slept all day yesterday. My heart rate was steady around 125 and my temperature is 100.9.

I’m still losing weight and so I feel weak. I did do tube feeds, but used a boost breeze instead of my peptamen. I threw up this morning and continued to dry heave afterward. I got an ultrasound and nothing showed up. I also got tested for celiac and ibs, both negative.

My blood sugar got tested and was normal also. There testing me for c dif and May do a gastric emptying test, which I’m hoping they do. It tests for Gastroparesis.

I’ve been hooked up to I’ve fluids since I haven’t been taking anything in.

I’m planning on doing a marvel movie marathon. Yay.

I don’t really have anything else to say. Thanks for all the support.

That’s all for now,


500 Posts

So many posts… the time I’m uploading it’s more than 500 ports, but you get the idea. I can’t believe I’ve uploaded 500+ posts, I wonder how long I’ve spent on this blog..? 😂

Common Misconceptions of Mental Health

There are many different kinds of mental illnesses, for me it’s anxiety, and depression. So I have experience, but not everyone with a mental illness has just anxiety or depression.

So I’m here to talk to you about common misconceptions of mental health.

-It’s not real.

This is a big one and comments lie, this vary. It’s not real, or it’s all in your head are big ones. Mental illnesses are real things. Things like anxiety and depression are caused by an imbalance of chemicals in the brain.

Other things can be caused by trauma or an already existing issue in someone’s life.

-It goes away.

It never goes away. It’s always going to be alert of your life, even if it’s a distant memory. Yes, it does get better with medication or treatment, but it doesn’t take it ways completely. For me, I have anxiety/panic attacks weekly, I have bad anxiety in social situations. I’m depressed, it’s still there.

-Your just sad.

This is a big misconception of depression. It’s not just the sadness, yes it can be a big part of it, but there’s other things to it. The doubt, the numbness, the void of thoughts. There can be physical aspects of it like sleep too.

-I understand

Unless you have that illness you will not fully understand. I hate when I hear people say oh I understand because I get sad sometimes, or I understand because I get anxious or nervous for certain things. It’s hard for us to explain it to people and so people try to understand.

-Think of something else.

It really depends on what the persons going through, whether it’s trauma, anxiety, depression, you can’t just think of something else. A lot of the times episodes of these feelings just pop out of nowhere. You can’t just think of puppies and kittens and those thoughts and feelings will go away.

For some it helps lesson those thoughts by distraction or just by surfing the wave. You can’t always try and prevent those feelings, you have to learn to deal with them and manage, not just choose to deal with them later.

That’s all for now,


Stupid Lungs

I’m pretty positive I’m getting a lung infection. When I went to my check up from me last being admitted I had to do pfts, get my flu shot, a throat vulture, and a bunch of other stuff. My pfts were down, which makes since because I was having a little problems with my lungs. One of my numbers were 78, which isn’t bad, but before they were 84 so there down from when I was discharged from the hospital.

I’ve had increased in mucus and I’ve had a cough that is continuously increasing.

I feel crappy and I’m constantly tired and my joints hurt. My nausea is also worse, but that usually happens when I’m sick. I’m also getting out of breath and stuff. My doctor just said it isn’t concerning her and so she didn’t put me on any antibiotics.

So now I’m dealing with the loads of mucus and crap feeling.

That’s all for now,


Things my Chronic Illness Has Taught Me

Over the 14 years of my life I have learned many things due to my chronic Illness. Having any sort of illness is hard to deal with and teaches you how to deal with a lot more especially at a younger age.

-Don’t take life for granted

For a lot of people this is a given. Having to go through hospital admissions, bad days, medications and such causes you to be thankful for the little things. Being able to do things on your own, and feeling generally well can be rare for some. Even when I am not sick I can still feel fatigued or nausea’s. Doing to much in a day can cause me to overcome with fatigue or just generally feeling unwell.


Since a young age iv’e been taught to do these things that other kids don’t have to do. Having to do treatments and taking medications that rely solely on your doing is  big responsibility for anyone, but when you have to do it at a young age it can be a struggle. When I was younger my parents helped me out, but since before I was 10 I was mainly taking all my medications and treatments by myself. It can stressful to always have to do these things to make sure my health is in good shape. If I didn’t do treatments I would end up in the hospital.

Then there’s all the doctors appointments. They can add up. My mom always drives me to them since, well, I can’t drive yet,but I have to be responsible for the work I missed in school since I usually have a Friday appointment. Then I have to make sure I have good grades and that I stay on top of it.


Sure everyone has some sort of independence. Of course I always have my sister by my side, but again I do my treatments by myself.

There’s a limit to the amount where you can branch yourself off. Ya I still need my parents and sisters help sometimes, but at a young age I learned independence.

I also appreciate that I have this independence along with the responsibility.

That’s all for now,